the desert.

So, for the past year I have been in this weird desert place in my walk with God. I still believe in God, but I have been struggling with understanding what it means to truly be a Christian. Growing up in the church, I have seen my fair share of church politics. My dad, a pastor, was asked to leave the church he was pastoring because he wasn't speaking in tongues frequently enough. (At this church, the presence of God was determined by how often the pastor would speak in tongues) Although this happened when I was younger, these things have only become more apparent to me as I have changed to new churches. It seems that every church I go to, there is something off about it. Either the pastor doesn't use scripture in his sermons, or the worship team is more like a performance, etc.. I hate to be so picky, but I really just want to be in a real, genuine church, like the kind of church Christ envisioned. I remember learning last year about a thing called organic church, and I tried it, and it was very refreshing. It was genuine worship and sharing, which is hard to find these days.

-Liberal Lucy